Now I know why

Now I know why I haven't kept up with family like I have should have. The 2 other sides of the family kicked out in me all togeather along with a family fued on top of alot of things. Pluss about 17 years of being from home does alot to a person for one side of the family to give a rats behind on a member who could give a crud about it all. As I left one side of the family alone figureing that I was safe I wasen't at all. Soory I would rather take crap from the Eade Side of the family and be torn to Hell than from a family that they could really care less about me. This is why I haven't been back to Collinsville Illinois at all in the past 17 years at all. At least some don't blame me for going to funerals to make sure folks are dead at all on one side of the family at all. If some remember right on one side of the family I got totally screwed anyway just for who I was and not really a danm Viviano in the first place. That is right I am an Eade and McEwen with my attatude and bluntness. I took dance classes and a few other things to get away from the Viviano side of the family and Hoped I got adopted by an Urban also in a way. I kept my madin name and my married name for a reason around here in NY State. Over 14 hrs away and 1200 miles I am totally done with alot of my fathers side of the family and he knows why. I got my Ass beat for nothing and went from there and when I figured dance class could get me out of the crap I took the chance on it all and never looked back. Now I am glad of it all. The house of horrors is behind me and I am better for it now and refuse to go back. Even an outsider seen in how I got treated for the last visit I made to make sure someone was dead. This is why I have resepect for 2 of my aunts and my father becuase they grew up in a Hell Hold Place that it diden't matter and some of us diden't take much after a few things happened. I knew I was never the favorite of my grandfather and my great grandmothers seemed to protect me somehow or another while I was there along with one of my aunts. I can thank one of them for my good looks for part of my life and thank my lucky stars that I look like the McEwen side and the Lacy side of my mom's side of the family now. Thank goodness all I got was the big butt from the Viviano klan. The only regreat I have at this point is not knowing my 3 baby cousins and my 2 Baby Brothers better out of life becuase of all the crap. The 5 of ya know who you are and I wont say any more. My door is always been open and always will eather way.