Shaking my head again

Well yesterday I got handed a low blow from some yet again here.  I am tired of some not stepping up to the plate for some folks and when they do they dump it all on my lap to pick up the pieces around the area.  I got a text yesterday saying happy birthday to someone who passed and when I told the person thanks for the low blow to me and his answer was what are you talking about.  I knew that it was meant as a low blow and knowing some already warned the person not to do it at all with me since I am still taking the death hard around my place.  The person who passed that had his birthday yesterday we were fairly close since we were almost 10 years apart and my birthday is the day before also.  So the both of us always celebrated togeather for both of our days.  That is one of the bashes that I always held at the trailer.  I envited everyone to the bash and who was suppose to be close to the man did not show up at all around my place.  That told me that one wife did not want to come over since the both of us were there or she would catch poverty as I call it from the trailer park.  So at this point in time I have refused to appologize for what I said to one wife of the group and that is it since I know what she is up to anyway and her husband swears she has changed over the years when I know better.  The couple I am talking about has the little heathen for a child.  So now I always know that I was crud to the wife and I know better on that part also.  Just because I had started with the cheap end on things at the trailer even more so when the girls were always at my place at the time since some of us had cruddy jobs at the time also.  So as I sit here and think of what went on at a funeral with the one set of parents and I ended up holding up one of their girls that day I know that some have not changed at all over the years after almost 2 years here after that and over the 10 that I had stopped babysitting for the couple.  So now at this point in time I have got alot cheaper over the years and alot of folks know about it around my place here without a problem.  When the car accident happened around here last year and the surgery some expected me to be back to normal right then and there 2 days after the surgery and to go back to normal.  Within a week my memory came back and so did my hearing alittle over 2 months ago here.  The folks that we bought the house off of here were amazed in how I was doing about 3 weeks after the surgery and no coller to help the neck out at all around here with me.  Also with alot of things that were going on and I appologized for the place being trashed around here to them and they told me not to worry at the time since I just had surgery when they stopped by.  So now at this point in time with some folks they knew that the accident really screwed me up around here and others do not give a damn at all.  When some folks are trying to be cheap around the area and that includes the folks we bought the house from around here we all pretty much traid in what we all do at our places to help out around the household to what works for the person at the time.  So now at this point since some of us are cheap around the area at this time it all works out for the best because I can make a quick call and ask for an opinion in the area also in how someone else would do something.  So now the gal that I baby sit for will be over today here at my place so we can all talk about girl things without the babies here totally.  Pluss she can sit in the a/c for awhile around my place.  Also now since I am the cheap one that the poor gal knows here in the area I already know in why she wants to come over to my place so she can pick my brain on the cheap ways that I have.  The gal that I babysit for knows the kids will be well fed around me either way if I am around for 3 days around her place and I have put my foot down with the kids about it all.  What got to me yesterday is one of the boys asked if I was cooking for lunch yesterday and it all hit me around here lastnight in what was said.  I told the boy no and you are eating out of the fridge today around here (was at the Momma's house) and they got grumpy on me.  The boys and the girls ate around the house and 2 of the kids just did not like it at all.  Since I can not eat some things at all with food alergies I told the boys to eat along with one of the girls and feel lucky that you can eat the food since my hands are burning with the peppers.  So after that one was like I am allergic and I told him your tounge itching he said no and I told him you ain't so eat.  The boy ate and went on with the day.  Also now at this point I may listen to the doctor if he wants me home here and to stop working because of the non growth of bone.