Brain fart

Well now I know why I really have no need to go back to Illinois.  I will take a trip down one last time and that will be it.  Since I have been up here I have really not seen anyone come up to NY at all except a few people and I guess being in a trailer for this long some may catch poverty at this point in time.  I can understand why some had not bothered to come up only becuase they could not travel at all in the past 10 years.  For others there is no excusses for it.  Now I will be collecting more of the nickels around here so I can take one last trip to Illinois and be done with it all around here.  After the other night when I talked to my sister I got blown off on the phone and I am done with the mess.  I guess that is her way of takeing it out on me since I could not get down for my Momma's funeral.  So now since really nobody has seen me since the accident and in how stressed out I have been in the past 3 months around here it is ok by me not to see family.  And after I talked to someone last night also around here I know why someone exploded on others down in Illinois.  I figured it out on my own and I have to laugh becuase I was not in on it at all.  This is why I need to get down there to pick up some things and never look back at all after I get back up here to NY State.  Now that I have been out of the state of Illinois for so long I am seeing in what really went on and goes on with 3 sides of the family.  That is the best part is that I am not even at someplace and I hear about things totally around here with being 4 states away here.  It depends on how you look at it and If you cross Canada also.  So here I am trying to pack and afew other things so that the poverty does not strike anyone if and when they get to my place.  Oh well at least I know I am out of 3 sides of the family around here and it really does not bother me at all.  Now I can pretty much do what I have to do and go from there to say the least.  Since I know that I can not really leave the place with the pets I will stay where I am out of the picture and tough on others around.  And some figured they all had problems now I know I have to figure it all out around here in what is going on.  I told somebody last night that her and the kids are more than welcome to stay at my place and we would figure out where to put everyone.  I am like that becuase I know what I have been thru in life and it is not pretty at all.  Ok now to make some phone calls and go from there.