Knowing about it

Well I know I have been really stressed out in the past few months around here and I can tell.  My thing is is when did blunt and nasty come up tonight all of a sudden around the place.  I have always been blunt here and why change that now even though I got worse in the bluntness here after the accident.  I have also kept my promise on paying people to help move and let alot of it go with some folks around here also on the help.  I do not expect anyone to help out at all with myself.  So now I will get myself into gear and do more damage and do not care what anyone else says at this point in time since I do squat during the day apparently and can do all of the housework on top of it in both places and choke back the pain.  One thing is off of me around here and I did not want the trouble of having 2 extra mouths to feed here at all when I do not even have the budget reworked as of yet here.  I will be working on that part for the next 2 years at least and go from there for the place.  With all the stress that I have been under as of late to get enough for the house and to pay some folks back for gas and other things here it makes me wander in why some asked to move in with me here anyway.  It put that much more on me because I knew what to expect around here out of my Niece and she would not have thought any different about what was going on here with what I am told at this point in time.  I do not even expect anyone else to understand niether here for the household.  So from now on I will start to push myself hard and oh well if I can not get out of bed the next day then it is on me from now on if not worse.  In how everyone else is looking at it I am not in pain in how I say I am anyway and may as well go on from here since everyone else is right in what they all know.  Now is my time to prove that I can push myself and be cheap at the same time around here and go from there.  May as well do something to make it all work here for the new place to say the least.  Now I have the lines up in the basement to dry the laundry and a few other things to be cheap on may as well get things done here in the house that is as cheap as possible and move on from the maddness of the world.  It is all in I can do and write about what I do for my place and what goes on here.  I still have dryer sheets cut in half for when I do use the dryer, I will use less of the cleaners than some people will like me to for the place, and shop at the deep discounted stores for the groceries that I pick up for the place.  Now to cut more of the power down around the new place and a few other things also while I am at it and not tell the folks that come over in how I do it around the house now.  Like some people would really come over now anyway that I look at it around my place anymore.