Shaking my head

I have been shaking my head since last night around here.  Now I will go stark quiet and make alot of folks wander around the place.  There is just way to much going on around here to let anyone move in and my stress levels have not gone down any at all neither for the place.  Even though it is quiet here and I like the neighborhood I just can not have 2 more people here with me at all at this point in time and some do not understand this at all.  Maybe I just need to be alone in the new place for a good 2 years here to get all of the bills down without anyone else here at all.  I told my Husband last night that there is no way here to have our Niece here along with her boyfriend to run up bills that we would have to pay and at this point it is not worth it at all.  Then I got to thinking of the grocery bill also around here with another 2 mouths to feed on top of it all.  Yesterday I said something about shopping once a month to the girls boyfriend around here and he about fell over out of the chair here in the kitchen.  I refuse to go every 2 weeks like I did in the Trailer.  At this point also I know what will happen if I let the both of them move in meaning that I would be stuck doing all of the housework here except 2-3 loads of laundry and that is including cooking and shopping for the place while I am at it all.  So now that I said no to my Husband around here about it he also understood my concerns in what I would have to do to keep the place going.  I do not think I got nasty about it last night at all and knowing that I had to put my foot down totally hard on what is and was going down around here.  I think that is what some do not understand about my attitude about some things here, and that I sometimes put my foot down totally to hard and mean it.  Also I have had to put my foot down more often so I do not get ran over for where I am at.  So now that I told some that I will be over at Aldi's for the grocery store more often they could not stand the fact that I like shopping over there and get alot more bang for the buck while I am there.  I have my ways in cooking on the tight budget that I have and it just got alot tighter for the household as of last week here.  There are somethings that I can not live without for the place and I will get things that is needed.  If I can get something cheaper at another place I will do that also for the household totally.  Just like with the paper plates for the house I refuse to get them to keep other folks happy that come over to eat dinner or have a cook out.  With the paper towels I will not use them hardly for places like the bathroom to clean with.  So maybe that is what gets some folks mad at me is because I do put my foot down on things like that and say no on totally for the household on alot of things that are not needed.  So here I sit totally frustrated on alot of things and with the stress on how I will do things here in the house.  I will be cheap either way about things and go from there for the place also.  This is my chance to go that much cheaper on alot of things here and will do it weather some people like it or not for the new place.  Now with some saying that I have been totally nasty in person here maybe it is so and would love to see them deal with what I have in the past 4 months here totally and I do bite my tongue in alot of what I want to say.  Plus I have been very blunt on some things for the can and the house here on what I have to get and what is not needed at all for both places.  So now if that is being nasty so be it around the place at this point in time.  I know that I need curtains for the house and have to find the one box for part of them at this point and needing rods for the place also while I am at it here.  When someone told me that they get T.P. at someplace at 9 dollars for 8 rolls I bit my tongue totally here and shook my head.  Here I am use to the cheep stuff for the place and do not mind it at all at 5 dollars for 12 rolls gee I see why some people are broker than snot at their place more and more.  Maybe I just hate wasting money on things or I have just got use to saving money totally for my household.  Then when the couple are that broke by the end of the month around their place then they want to barrow money off of myself and my Husband.  I keep telling them no all of the time and that does not even help out at all.  Now my answer is going to me no more often and myself saying I can't do it at this point in time at all since I can not even belch funny at all.  So now this is part of why I am as stressed and frustrated as I am here.