Wandering

Well now I am wandering in how many daily silver that I really need for the kitchen at this point.  There is alot that I am sure of here that can wait for a garage/yard sale around here after I go thru it all here.  That is the bad part about moving.  With some folks last weekend here figured that they would try and put all of my dishes into 2 of the upper cabinets around here and I did put a stop to it right then and there because I knew better for the place.  So I will get part of that done today and have more boxes for the other place.  It takes some time to figure out where I want some of the stuff at of course.  I am thinking that some folks try to hard to think of where I may want something in the house here and they all can not do it for me.  Even my Husband has let me do what I really need to do for the place and knowing that I have to sit down every so often here he does not holler to much about what I do.  He has noticed when I have a really good day and when I have the worst days for pain.  That is why the man does not holler at all about what I do.  So all I can do is take my time on things and do what I can.  Also at this point I know some folks are mad at me anyway that come over anyway here and that is on them totally.  I know what I have to do for the place here and I do alot of things that I am not suppose to do at all.  Even a good friend said now is not the time to push Cricket at all she is in way to much pain at this point.  With the person who stuck up for me last week around here pretty much knows that I will get to the dishes when I will get to them and trust me they are heavy sons of pups to lift constantly.  And that I do not trust anyone with my dishes at all.  I can not get the pattern for the set anymore.  I told my Momma last year in what I had and she about fell over totally in how I got them of course for free.  All we could do was laugh about it and go from there.  So now all I can do is alittle at a time for the house and go from there totally.  I have some help around here also.  With that being said I will say this also is that my Niece just does not get it at all and more than likely never will at all.  What gets to me more and more is that one person that comes over and my Niece figure that I am faking it all with the pain and that I can do and keep going thru it all here.  Knowing what is going on with the 2 blown disks in my neck here in how they were blown they touch my spinal cord.  So I have to be careful in what I do and how I do it around here also.  This is why I did not want someone else doing it for me at this point in time because if I have to rearrange the kitchen here I do not want to end up in the hospital at all nor in bed for a week or more.  I know I did not get nasty over it all and almost begged some not to do for me for the place.  What I did do was put my foot down hard and went from there.  If that is getting nasty then so be it.  It does not help that I am very blunt on some things also and I have been more blunt as of late while I am at it all.  I expected that the whiners were not over just becuase I could not afford to let them barrow anymore money from me not becuase I have become very blunt and stressed also.  Some have not seen in what I have been thru in the past 4 months niether and then some.  With alot of things that have went on around both places I guess with some I am not suppose to be stressed out and afew other things also here.  When you have someone else in the household who could give a damn on what is really going on then the stress builds becuase ya know that some are gonna chew you out for not doing also.  Well for alot of it I know others think that I am wrong in what I do and how I do it around here and I have got use to that fact all togeather for the place.  Just like when I get chewed out for not having paper plates in the household still by the people who say that they are always broke.  I will always be wrong for not having the waste of money things in my household here.  Also I have been doing all I can to be cheap so I can do some things here.  When the one couple always asks to barrow money off of me they figure that I can afford not to be paid back around here also.  The 30 dollars and then some could come in handy for groceries and a few other things at this point in time also.  I have came to the point of I will never see the money again in what they barrowed off of me at all now.  That is why it does not bother me to much when they do not come over at all after I say no on letting them barrow more money off of me.  All I can do now is sit back and say no I can't at this time and watch and see what becomes off of it now.  Since I am going that much cheaper around here and money is tight of course more than ever.  Also what I have planned I will put some money away while I am at it all from now on.  It will hurt the one couple more than myself at this point in time and oh well think before you ask me also from now on.  I have to many bills at stake here and I can not lend out squat anymore.