Seeing still

Well I would have not got to go out lastnight here if some would have still been coming over for this weekend if they had their way.  As I told one of my best friends lastnight here when she called and what happened totally with the one gal she started laughing and said if ya had that attatude and still do you were in the right totally.  Then she asked me in how things were holding up around the household and I told my girlfriend that I just ran out of the one roll of T.P. here tonight and it did not get ate up by the one gal that use to come over all of the time and that I have less dishes here also to get done while I am at it now.  So as I sit here and seeing in how much was wasted with the one gal that was coming over to the household twice a week here and trying to get the floor mopped totally on top of it no wander why I had so much stress going on and that was trigering the pain in my neck.  So as I was telling my girlfriend in what had happended and that I was still one of the cheaper ones out of the bunch here still to this day she agreed with me totally in that some of us never lost the nack for things in the household at all.  Since I was never the one to go out and get my nails done and spend money just because I could at any point in time here I knew that I would be better off for it all in the trailer.  This is part of the reason of why I do not baby myself and it is one of the things of pinching the pennies togeather that much harder.  Alot of what I was seeing out of the one gal totally that was coming over is that she would complain every so often that she was broke and not bother to say hey I can cut back on this and this and be good for the month here without a problem at all.  Granted I get to the laundry once every 2 weeks around here in the household for the most part and it is all gathered up in bags so I can get it down stairs here to make my job alittle easier.  Also on top of it here I will find the easy way of getting things done here for the household and go from there.  Even if it meens of keeping up with some things and letting other things go for the place.  Maybe that is why some freaked out here in what I have been doing and not been doing for the household and myself.  So now at this point in time here it is all making alot of since in what has went on and the whys.  Now with that being said here I never asked for any money what so ever from the gal who accussed me of it at all and never will.  I paid her back for what my Husband asked and I totally stayed out of it unless I was paying the gal back for what others did in the household.  If it was up to me I would have never barrowed the money off of the gal in the first place seeing what happened now as of a week ago tomarrow along with other things that were going down.  There are some things that I just will not do and as some say pride fallith before everything else here they meen it with someone like me.  I do not ask for money at all and never will since I know better around here and it is chucked by some of my family members also and how I seen what the heck happened.  Also my Husband knows that I have talked with some of the neighbors now and they would not lie and have no reason to also in what was going on while I was gone since I busted some also while I was at it.  As I told my best friend I have to save up if and when I come back down and at this point I do not have the money to do squat with anyway at this point since life did happen also here and bills got paid.  The person agreed with me and we went from there since we are all broke.  So now at this point in time here at least I can say that alot of people that are very close to me are cutting corners even in their place and the ones who were not close to me could careless in what they were doing at all and figured that it was ok and oh this person will help me out either way I go here.  So as I sit here now and think of how many corners that I have cut in front of at least one person since they were over all of the time here and they never picked up on alot of things that were going down here at the house.  What I meen by that is when I do not have all the movie channels since I do not watch them nor does my Husband they do not get bought at all here for the month.  Also the both of us are working off of cell phones and they are more reliable than the cable phone at this time.  This is what has got to some people at this point in time here that just did not care nor did they ever care in what was going down in how I was trying to cut back at the time.