Thinking again

I will admit that I have been thinking since Monday around here totally.  At one point my short term memory was just not there at all and has came back and there was nothing wrong with the long term memory at all after some things.  There are times that I still write things down on paper as a just in case anyway and that is how it is.  At this point up untill Monday here I did what I could when I could since I had to deal with alot of pain with some things here and alot of it has been stress on alot of things here there is a problem.  Now at this point in time some things are clicking in what has been said to me at both the trailer and here at the house from some people.  Now at this point in time I can see why alot of things happen totally and for good reasons that I seen right off the bat with some.  At this point in time here with some things I can say that I am not a perfect housekeeper and never will be here.  I have hot spots for clutter and have had for years at this point in time.  Yet I still make sure that the floors are clean for the most part here along with several other spots in the household are clean also to the point of that some do not have to be scared to sit on something at all here.  After the accident 18 months ago this month I can hardly vacume the house at all and that may change here also since there is alot less stress on me at this point in time here since I was in alot of pain also and thanks to the triggers for that part.  When someone says to me that I would be sick in what she has not done to the house for cleaning at all it tells me that she was in a depression still and afew other things also at this point in time.  Now at this point in time I have got alot cheaper here since my Husband and I moved into the house here and I am still finding things to cut out of my budget totally to this day almost 14 months later here.  When I thought the person was a friend here she asked me in how I did it all and where she could cut in her own household to streach her money that much further at the time I asked her straight out bring over the bills so I could be sure in what was going out at the time.  She did and I looked at her and asked is it really a need to have 30 movie channels at the time since she only watched one of them totally.  I got told straight out I refuse to cut the cable bill for the house.  I stopped right there and said here and that I gave my opinion on where to start on things and I could not help her after the comment she made.  So now at this point in time since of the blow out on Monday here after I had asked if she could take her shoes off at the door here since I wanted to see something and got tired of mopping up water off the floor that she left behind totally here when everyone else that walks in takes their shoes off at the landing at the back door.  Now at this point since the gal told me fine I will not be over then this Friday or any other time to me I did not say much except fine what ever here and knowing what had happened before also and what was told to me here also out of her mouth along with her cutting me down for the pain that I was in fine don't come over and it was a huge weight lifted off of me right then and there.  In what was said to me over the years made since in why there were things going down also in her life.  I will not totally say what happened at all and it does make since at this point in time still.  And alot of it clicked as of yesterday totally also here.  So now at this point in time since the gal does not have a clue in what I have been doing at this point in time for the household or she just totally ignored what was going on here it is ok at this point in time.  At this point I do not have to off set in what she has done to me anymore at all for the past 3 months at all and now I will see the water bill along with the pwoer bill go down that much further at this point in time also.  That is how I am looking at it and knowing that it does not matter in what I use for soaps nor cleaners in the house from now on at all anymore here.  That is why I have been switching things over slowly and to streach out the stuff also at this time has helped that part out here.