About ready to blow

Well the pannel for the house was never inspected around here and that is why I have no meter around the place at all.  I could not believe it at all around here to say the least and I am not a happy camper at all.  Now to say the least around the place is that I am going nuts totally.  I am to the point of tears almost around here and do not want to go back to the trailer at all for heat and power around a place.  I knew this place was to good to be true around here and will give up on everything to say the least.  I am mad about all of this totally.  I went cheaper so some things would not happen around here and I have all but gave up around here to say the least on everything that has gone on so far.  Now is the time that I really do not need some folks up my toush at all and I am thankfull that I did say no so some people around here.  The power can not be shut off at this point anyway around here since we are still in winter mode around NY State.  I have also came to realize that trouble fallows me all over the place now and what has gone down is not my fault at all around here.  Now I am at the point where just do what ya have to do around here so I can figure out what I have to do and go on from there.  I can not complain to much around here since I do have a fire place and do not know if I can use it or not around here at all.  So now I can say that I will be doing everything in my power to keep things going around the household here and go from there.  Now on I will have to hang laudry and keep everything turned off in the household after today of course.  The boys will miss the extra heat of course and that is ok also.  So now that I am totally stuck around here I will figure out a way to make it all work one way or another for the place.