I figured as much

I may as well be moving back to the trailer around here after today.  I already know what is going down around here and may as well hang it up.  I was hoping around here and that has been totally done in of course.  I knew my voice came back acouple of months ago and I still project my voice since I could hardly talk for 4 months to say the least after the accident 6 months ago around here so folks figure I am screaming when I am not around here.  Now I am very adjusted at the lawyers office who handled the house around here totally knowing in what has happened here.  The gal tried to pin it on us who bought the house for the electrical around here when it was not us at all.  So now the guy from the power company told me don't worry for the next 10 days and I still have a plan either way and I will walk away from the house here as of 10 days from now.  I can not help but be stressed at this point in time around here now.  Knowing that stress is a huge part of my neck and back pain at this point I am done with alot of it now.  Now I do not wander in why I say no anymore to folks wanting me to do for them when I can not do it anymore.  So now to go very cheap and be done with it so I can make it in the world beat down and worth less than nothing around here to say the least.  It was fun being a home owner for about 3 months around here and that is it at this point in time.  Since I am not worth a flying rats behind and still an outsider around here in NY State I may as well just tuck what is left of my tail between my legs pack and get out of this Hell Hold state of NY now.  At least I know that I can get a job where I came from easier than what I can now here in NY State.  It is sad that I realize this now at this point months into the household.  That is holding me here and the accident with medical is the other around here.  Other than that I would have totally vanished around here by now.  I know that some of us are cut out and I am not worried about that part of things form some people since they will come crawling back to some of us either way the both of us go around here.  All I know is that I am done around here totally.  I have no love loss with some folks around the area and I will be the first to admit to it around here.  I went down the cheap path for a reason and now I know why around here totally at this time of course.  Then next thing is that I am not going to play alot of the games that I have been around NY State with some people anymore.  Now it will be a whole new game and I just do not care at all on what toes I step on at this point in time.  At this point I will do what I have to do to servive around the area and that is it now.  The cheaper I go the better off I am around here I know this after this morning and afternoon of wanting to throw up my hands and say screw this part of my life again.  It will not be the first time around here at all in what I am trying to do at all and will not be the end of it.  SInce I have already cut the house phone I may as well go all the way around here with everything else in the book weather it works best for me and the household at this time.  I will be pulling out all the old tricks of the traid around here and be done with it all.