Knowing about some things

Well for the past almost 18 years since I have been up in NY State now I have been marked as stupid for most of the time.  I know this and some have said so also thru the years to me.  Now years back about 14 years ago my Husband and I were suppose to get Liberty Ann my sister in laws "Adopted Girl" if anything happened to her.  Well things did not work out like that and the paper work disappeared on all of us.  Well needless to say my sister in law was worried that I would flatin the girl if she messed up in my household and basicly did some things.  I would have taught Liberty Ann totally the right from wrong and there is the real world out there not some small town that everyone cares for everyone.  To put it simple the girl was spoiled and ran the household totally and that would have stopped with me in my household totally.  Now seeing things for what they are worth there was alot of things that were lies on alot of things and Child and Youth in PA were totally lied to and did not realize it all.  What alot of them did not take into consideration is that I would not have to bend the girl over my knee and smack her at all I have other ways of disapline for the household totally.  Things like taking away the phone, T.V., inter net, and no going out also for punishment here.  Also realizing that Liberty Ann was to far gone by the time we would have got her was another thing on my mind.  Now with the supposad adoption of Liberty Ann Never happened and who the girl thinks her father is at this point in time is not her father at all it is a toss up between 2 men and I will never know along with others.  So now at this point Liberty Ann has came to realize that she would have had it good in my household and is eating what she did.  All I told her was you made the choice in life and I never got the letter to show back up into court at all for ya.  I had my doubts when my Husband signed the paper work on the girl and said so at the time years ago.  Now it all came togeather with him and afew other things that happened over the years to him.  My Husband knew if something was said I would have knocked Liberty Ann on her toush and kept beating her untill 6 grown men tried to pull me off of her if she started lieing to alot of people.  I think that is what scared her totally about me is that where the girl was at, at that point in time about me also.  Also Liberty Ann did not want to learn squat in how to run a household on very little money on top of it all from myself.  After the girl called myself and my Husband "Trailer Trash" little does Liberty Ann know that the trailer was a stepping stone of 17 years for the both of us and we have moved.  With some in the household almost 5 years ago I would have went that much cheaper to save for a down payment of a house during that point in time pluss kept on working also.  Now after all of the years of being called stupid from some folks like my sister in law and others I have came to the point of think what you want to because I am still pulling back money today for other things in life.  This is why I have went to the cheap side and there is no turning back at this point at all.  I saved and willed the KitchenAid mixer along with other things that was needed in the household and got them after I realized that I was not going to get Liberty Ann at all and went from there.  Now that alot of things have stuck around here with myself I am not worried at all that I can do things for the place even after the accident that I was in.  That is one thing that was not told at all by a person and I am greatfull for.  I still suffer from short term memory loss around here unless I write things down and it works out for the best.  I also have realized that a higher power was involved with alot of things for the household and I am fine with that.  Some things still make me mad when I sit down and think about it around here and I do work on that when I am alone in the household.  I also ask for help that I need from alot of folks that could give an opinion on things to say the least.  Also taking back the housework and throwing some people out helped alot with myself in learning while I am at it all.  Knowing in what goes on in the real world helps out alot more than what some think helps out.  So while everything was exploding in my face I had normal recourse on alot of it and went alot cheaper to keep busy around the trailer and the household over the past 5 years here.  I have thought about alot of things that have happened over the past almost 18 years around here and some folks have to understand that I was not always the cause of alot of the drama and never was the cause at all.  All I have done was say the truth about things and went on with life and never been held up around here on what went on after I gave it some thought and seen what was going on.  Some folks need to see that and they never will.  I have also learned that to open my mouth to some people around here becuase they will always rat us out nomatter in what I do or others will do.  I have been called worse than trash by the best of folks and worst of folks also and it does not fase me anymore because I could care less on what some folks think or say because it may not be true.