Sitting here wandering

Well as I sit here and wander around the place and knowing some things I am not to worried about what has happened at all.  What makes me mad is that my Niece wanted to be turned loose and got her wish on it all and I hope that she sees that she chose the wrong path way like the others did once they looked back.  I refuse to hold my breath on anything out of the world of the kids today anymore after I had hope for at least 3 of them.  I know now that none gives a rats behind for anyone else and I have came to learn that part of it all around here after wandering and thinking on it all.  I have came to the conclusion on what I tried to teach some that I know was impossible and came to grips with it all around here and I will move on from there.  Now that I have realized this and I am ok with it all I have left is being cheap, reading, and blogging around here to get things done I will start sharing more in what I do for the place.  This is after being hung up on and totally treated like crap from family members for the last time today to say the least.  So expect alot of changes in what I blog about and what works from now on here in the household.  Along with books at a huge discount since I refuse to tear up my truck for the flipping city of Niagara Falls at this point still.  At least I have the books so I can reread them all.  I will be talking with my Husband this weekend about the house phone yet again since I am on the cell phone more and more around here to say the least.  The other changes to the household here he could care less about either way I go at this point in time.  As someone told me this morning before I got home to keep things in a shoe box by the tax forms around here as a new home owner it would be best.  I will take the woman up on that one since she has been married for over 55 years already with grown children.  In how the Woman knew today that I needed a moms advice I do not know and may never know at all.  And the woman did not blame me at all for what I got on sale today when I stopped at someplace at all for a fix with some things.  Believe it or not it was not Kmart at all for the day after the doctors office.  So after thinking alot of things thru around here I do not wander anymore about some things and knew I was on my own from an early age from some folks that are in my family.  So it all hangs now if and when I get to Illinois at this point if at all.  I am just tired of eating crap from family is what it comes down to it all with myself.  So with alot of things since I am good at cracking recipes around here I will start yet again on alot of things for my own household.  I will make sure I write everything down for when I start having my own children.  If not someone would appreciate them either way for what I am doing around here.  Along with the books that I have either way I turn.  So I at least have something to look forward to around the new place to say the least.