Not a good morning

Well this morning was not good for the deposits at all around here.  I will try again here tonight over at the mall and a few other places to see where I get at least.  A dollar in the deposits is better than nothing in my eyes.  Later on I will hit up down the street here and afew other places for the day here.  In what I am doing and have done use to drive my Niece nuts in how I would get as many of the bottles and cans for the household around the trailer.  The girl could have picked up more than I had on her walks also.  She also chose not to and to take money off of my Husband before I threw her out of my place before we left the trailer.  So now I will find ways around here to help the household and see where I get off of getting the nickles around here without a problem at all.  I will win this one weather some like it or not that come over and tough on them at this point in time.  At this point I am looking to get out of here again at 8:30 this morning to go out to the bank for one of the first house payments that I have to make for the place.  Then I will stop at another place while I am out and about since I have to pick up some things at Kmart again for the household.  I will be doing alot of things for the place today around here and my Husband was thinking that I do not do much either way I went during the day while he is gone also.  Well he realized that I have left the dishes for most of the weekend around here and alot of other things just to drop what I was doing to do what he wanted me to also.  So yes the house falls apart when I do not get things done around here at all it seems.  So now I will get the things done around here and make sure that I will be getting my list up to show some in what I need and have to get done to make the household work around here.  So that is another thing that I have to write down around here to remind myself of what I have to get and what needs to be done around here to make everything work.  I look at it like this around here some folks do not realize in what I am doing for the place here and that is where they all get into trouble also.  Or they just do not care in what I have to do at all to save money around here.  More or less the 2nd one for the household.  So I will be saying no more often and pulling back in what they ask for around here.  I have to laugh sometimes becuase some folks do not figure that I have been and will be doing all of this for myself and the household.  Or maybe I do not believe in dollaring a person at all.  So now I will do what I have to to pay back some folks and go from there and I will be doing this quickly for my own sake and piece of mind.  Pluss I see alot more guilt trips coming up from myself on the couple that always wants to barrow things off of myself and my Husband around here.  The first question that I will have for the one couple is ok who does not eat, smoke, nor drink in the folks that I have to pay back around here.  With that being said around here I will be making more meals from scratch and go that much cheaper for the food bill around here.  Another thing is that I will bring up around here is that ok now what does not get paid because you want to barrow more money and smokes off of me around here.  There are alot of ways I can do this all around here and like it also.  I just have not said much about it before except for no I can not do it at the moment and you are going to have to ask later on.  Now when I think I have it all figured out around here I start thinking again around hereon a better way of doing things also.  So I may just do what I need to do and be done with it all around here and start picking up change when I see it and other things that I have to do for the place.  My Husband knows that I will figure it all out and I have been bouncing ideas off of him in the past couple of weeks around here no matter in how we turn for the place.  Maybe that is why I am pushing myself for the nickle deposits around the household here.  I will also be cutting back as much as I can around the household and that is another thing that gets to some folks around here also.  With the mouchers that ask me for money do not realize that I have to be carefull in what I use becuase of the birds in the household while I am at it all.  As I told the girl that works on me I had to cut alot of things out because of the feather balls and I do not mind it at all becuase it is cheaper to get the more expensive products so they do not get sick nor go into sezures because of it.  The one moucher she does not get it at all around my place.  She also said that my attitude is nasty anyway around here about alot of things.  When that came up I have realized that I was putting my foot down and that was it and if that is being nasty so be it around my household.  Some will figure it all out that I can not just lend out money at all anymore nor smokes.  As I told my Husband this weekend we will not hear from the mouchers untill about the 15th of the month when they have ran out of money for things in their household and to mark my words on it.  Then my Husband seen the pattern of what they do.  So I am ready and armed for what is about to happen around here totally when the 15th comes along.  With the 30 dollars that I lent them and the 10 dollars that I gave the guy there is the gas money that I owe them for somewhat helping us.  I did not plan on seeing the 30 dollars anyway that they barrowed.  So now I will chuck it up to a loss and go from there.  So now I will be out for myself and get alot done around here just for my own sake and sanity.  So I will try to pull money back around here either way if folks ask to barrow off of me and the household.  It will be hard with the first year around here and I know this and I will get frustrated about it and the folks that read this I am telling the straight out truth.  This is why I wanted my Momma around just abit longer and healthy.  When I lost her I am now lost also in what to do and ask for an opinion from her.  With that being said some have been really broke and when the money came in then all the bills got paid construction who knew.  It maybe a question for my sister and my sister in law in to ask in what they all did for the household.  And I know it is a trick question on some things becuase I remember alot of what went on either way.  Or it is that some of us are that old fashon that we can figure it all out on our own around a household.  I have been cutting back and slashing in what I can and I always figured it was never enough for what I am trying to do for the trailer or other places that I have been at in life.  Maybe I know the answer deep down and it will take awhile to kick in also.  With what I am doing now maybe it is a good thing that I am a reader and will try anything to cut the bills down around the place no matter of where I am at around this earth also.  Like picking up nickle deposits helps out totally and cutting things in half or below, also shopping at the bargin racks while I am at it all for where I am at in life.  I know it scares alot of folks that come over to my place and I could care less about what they all think and do for thier own place now at this point in time.  What makes me mad around here is when there is something open and someone else opens up something that is already opened here and makes total excusses for what they did without asking if something else was open.  Also with some they wet down paper towles to clean the counter tops with also.  That is wasting money in my eyes around a place.  So here I am trying to cut things back and the mouchers figure oh they can afford in what we do and try to do around their place it makes me mad and I do put my foot down more often with the mouchers.  Now some folks are out of luck with me around my place from now on here and they do not realize it at all.  I will hit where I hit this morning from now on with what I was doing and there will be less money for some mouchers out of the City of Niagara Falls here by the time I get done with it all for years to come.