Shaking my head

Well I got about 50 cents today while I was out.  At least it is something that I picked up out in the snow here this morning.  I thingk that is what gets to some folks around here is that I do not mind the snow at all now when it comes to rain that is a differant story.  And you never even know what is going to be on the radio also.  Now with that being said I was listening to talk raido here and only 53% of the Black Males out of Buffalo NY graduate.  That is pretty sad in my eyes when E. St. Louis Illinois and Chicago Illinois has a higher graduation rate than here in NY.  So what does that say for NY State in total?  I guess that most parents are so unplugged at this point around here in NY State that it stinks and about 90% of parents let their children do what they want at home.  I have seen it out of Sabre Park way to much in the past 10 years or so also.  So now with some folks they know what they have to do to make ends meet in todays world and the children do not have a clue as to what is out there in the real world at all.  Some of us have been picking up the bottle returns just to make it around the area.  And I know several folks that have lost their place to live just recently around here.  With my Niece that was stupidity on her part totally.  I asked, begged, pleaded, and bitched for her to start filling out apps for a job at the trailer.  She flat out refused to do it and would rather hang out with friends.  I tried and now her boyfriend put his foot down and is making her do to where I could not.  So now I have made my mind up that there is and was no way I could have 3 more people in the household that some did not work and the other did not lift a finger to help out around the house at all.  I could not go for that on what is coming in with the household.  So now I am collecting the nickles again and streaching everything out to the max so I can get some food by the end of the month for the household.  I think that was the whole reason of why I did not want the extra 3 mouths to feed and house on top of everything here.  Another thing is that I would have to bust my butt to do what I had to do and then come home to a filthy house on top of it all was not going to happen at all.  Or maybe it was knowing what went into my Nieces Boyfriends place and that was not going to happen at my place at all.  I refuse to have someone who think that drugs are cool to do at someone elses place and get my place took away and go to jail for someone else up here.  With that being said there are a number of reasons of why I did not want the 3 to move into my place at all that is only part of the reasons and, trust me I made a list out of the good and bad of it all at the trailer and the list got longer here in the house.  So now I can come and go as I please and do as I please for the household here.  If some folks do not like in what I do then don't even bother me at all for what I have been and will do here.  I got to thinking yesterday about all of this and I should stick 10 dollars a month back in the one account that I have for not useing paper plates at all.  Pluss also to top it off to stick money back when some folks want to barrow off of me by the last 2 weeks of the month around here while I am at it.  I may as well keep on doing the nickle thing for the place and streaching out in what I do have here for the household because it will only get worse if I let some people just run all over me like they have been doing.  Maybe some will learn that I am not playing the game that everyone wants to play around here also.  So I am figureing that I will do what I have to do for the place and start saying no more often around here.  With alot of things that have been going on in the past month for the place I think that I have scared alot of people also here in saying no and getting things done here.  Just like with picking up the bottles and the cans out of the parking lots around here I get my walks in and extra money coming into the household.  Another thing that has got to me is that things are lasting longer around here without a problem at all like the dish soap, laundery soap, food, and money for the place now without my Niece in the household at all now.  It seems wierd that everything is being streached out to the max again in the place.  So now I will be doing alot more around here without a problem at all for the place.  Yes I am going cheaper around here weather some like it or not around the household.  I can really do all of this now without a problem at all now since I am seeing alot more that I can do.  Maybe it is becuase I have a bigger place and knowing what I have to do to save money for the place.