Seeing more

Well since I am seeing my grocery bill going down for the household more and more over the month here still for the new place.  I never knew in how much of a pig that my Niece really is and was when she was in the trailer.  Now the girl is on her own and trying to figure out how to make ends meet on her own after I tried to show her in what to do.  Also I got to thinking in what some other folks had told me to do in the trailer and the house here that in what I was doing was wrong by going cheaper for either place.  Some thought that I was cheap before they all have not seen in what I am about ready to do for the place yet.  I am trying to go even cheaper for the place from now on.  I have been looking around to see what I could do in the trailer and came to a huge brain block for it.  I started thinking on things anyway and that is why I had the cable box to turn off at about 10 pm when my Niece was at the trailer.  That is what started alot of it yet again for what to do in the can.  Some things I could not help at all and when I went to say something about what was gone out of the fridge for dinner all I got was oh sorry I did not know.  Well that was one of the last straws along with some tearing up most of what was on the table that could be and I was tired of it all.  The total last straw was when I got blown off and some did not even care at all in what they were doing.  So now with that I have learned that I could do more without some in the household and alot more is being streached out in the new place now.  This tells me something in what was and is going on at this point in time.  I was also told that my attatude was nasty and that is why some were not coming over anymore also.  It is not the case at all with that part of what was said at all.  I just stopped lending out money and other things to some people and realized all they wanted to do was get money and screw in what I had to do for my place at all costs.  So now most of the time I have money for groceries and this month I am short on that part kind of except I do have the nickle deposits to take in around here and that may be in all I have to spend for the month.  What has got to me the most is that some people figured that I had money when I did not.  I am even broker at this point in time becuase of the house here and payments that have to be made.  Now knowing that some will be calling me some time this week to try to barrow money off of me again I am better armed to say no about it at all costs nomatter in what guilt trip that they try to lay on me at this point.  Also I have to think about how to pay the bills around here before I can even lend out money at all.  While I am at it I have been really thinking of some things around here that I really need to figure out in how to make all of it work.  It makes me wander about some people around the area that always wants to barrow money and never thinks twice in how others are going to afford to eat.  With that said the one couple that always wants to barrow money off of me is on the system for some things already and they cry poverty all of the time.  Here I am not on the system anymore and have to pay out of pocket for food and other things in the household.  I do not get in how some do not have a budget for things at all for their place.  So now here I am I will tell the one couple no and here are the bills that I have to pay out and tell me how I can afford to lend out money to you now at this point in time.  This is why I will be stretching out more things in the household and be done with it and go from there.  I will be writing more down in what to do in a note book also for the week and a calender of what I have opened up and when.  Some people will be in shock in what I am doing.  The list for today is not looking pretty at all.  Alot of it will get done when my Husband leaves for work also.  I do not get blamed for what I do when the man leaves neither.  I get things done on using less while the poor man is working than when he is here.  My Husband knows in what I am doing for the most part anyway and it is nothing bad for the household at all.  This is why he lets me go on alot of things that I do that are on the cheap side for the house.  Also without some things for the household it is cheaper to run the space heaters at this point in time while I am at it.  I know it sounds weird and it is.  Normally I will not run them at all and will not recommend it at all.  Anyway now I can say that I am doing some things that are going to be out of the normal for the place and some people will have to deal with it that come over and who do not anymore.  I will also be paying some folks back in what I owe them also and I just did not want to barrow off of them to get things done at all for the place.  Maybe this is what is bothering some folks totally around here also in why I am saying no all of the time here.  Now I am going to see in how cheap I can really take the place and be done with it all from now on.  I really do not care in what others think of my attitude while I am doing this at all now.  I will be overly cheap and be done with it all.  I will be thinking more about some things and will get it all done for the place without a problem at all.  By using less and writing down things I should be ok for the place.  I know alot of folks will be mad at me here shortly and that is ok.