Shakeing my head

Well I have not done to much today after I got home here.  I have all week to get stuff done over at the trailer either way I look at it at this point in time here.  Now I will get alot done this week and work on the one room so I can get the dinning room table and the bufet in there.  While I was dropping off my Husband I ran into Leona Cox the one that gave me Olliver (seazure bird).  I do not feel one bit sorry for Leona what so ever at this point in time in what has went down now.  Well lets see her ex boyfriend came over with his wife and that should tell Leona something now about some folks.  Pluss I will not tolorate someone telling me that I am cheatting on my Husband when I haven't at all then to spread rumors about it also.  So now that I am totally away from all the crap from the trailer park I have calmed down alot and still mad about some things that have went on.  As I told my Husband there has been way to many fist fights at the trailer and I am thankfull to leave it except that is where my ferret is burried at.  One of the many losses at the trailer.  So now I can say that I am not as cold harted as some think that I am around here.  I just do not tolerate alot of things that some figured that I would.  And that goes for people in alot of places since I ate enough  crud from them over the years also.  Now I am the one that will fight dirty and will admit to it all.  After almost 18 years of being in NY State it clicked for myself about alot of things that were going on.  And yes I made since of the whole mess over the years here.  Alot of it I had to work on myself figureing that it was me when it wasen't at all.  I was the normal one for the most part.  I also did what I did not want to do last year at all and barrowed money off of a friend.  I will be paying the person back as soon as I can around here without a doubt in my mind.  Maybe this is why I am pushing myself to get as many of the nickle deposits as I can for the place so I can pay back one person and the loans that we both took out for the house now.  So I will not worry about some things around here as long as I have some money coming in for the household here.  Now with alot of it here I will be hitting up some places to help out and other things also to make money on my own here to help out the household.  Maybe that is the main thing that I am worried about at the moment is that I want and need to pay some folks back around here.  Also with the money that is coming in I hope that I can swing alot more also around here than what I am figureing on.  I have thought alot of it over around here and I have no choice but to go cheaper for the household and I have a plan for that also while I am at it all.  I am just gearing up for the first year here of being really broke for a good while in life and alot of it does not compair to whne I first came up here to NY State niether once I think of it.  At least I know what the heck I am doing now and where to get my frustrations out also.  So I will be hitting some places up around here for the nickle deposits to get extra money around here and do not care what the mouchers have to say about it and I will be telling them no more often for my place on alot of things weather they like it or not or think I am being nasty about it all.  I have to pay some folks off either way I look at it now and do not care if the mouchers do not have money for the gas tank for their van nor smokes at their place.  It is not my problem anymore and they have to realize this and as of now.  If they do not after a couple of months they will after I say no more often and tuck the money away here for someone else.  Pluss I am tired of some always begging for dollars from me now days here.  So at this point I know why I went to the cheap side of life and why I want to go cheaper around the household here.  I will streach everything out to the limit around here weather some like it or not now around here and I will be putting my foot down even harder from now on around here while I am at it.  If some thought I was nasty before by putting my foot down then they have not seen squat now about it at this point in time.  Now with that being said some are not going to like in what I have to do to go cheaper than dirt around here at all and others have to deal with it at this point in time since they sleep next to me for the most part around here.  So now I will get something done here shortly I hope and go from there.