Now I am realizing

Well now I know it was not my Grandmother at all on my dad side of the family.  Now I am madder than ever on what happened over the house and other things and I never trusted my one uncle to begin with around the place at all.  Have a priest in the family that was running from the mob and you will understand why I lied about the Birth Control totally to him.  I did what I thought was best and some knew about it all in why I did it.  This is why I am sick of being dogged out of the family the other part is not kissing anyone's toush on top of it all.  I learned early never to kiss any butt, nor ask for money at all.  I have lived by that for the past 20 years if not longer since I do not want it over my head.  Plus knowing what has happened in the past and why my great uncle went into the priesthood to begin with and things never change over the years at all.  He is the same womanizer and whore he was in hit teens and early 20's in my eyes.  I will tell ya every family has the bones in their closets either way they go.  I figured mine was always worse because I did not know any better growing up.  Well after I got older and figured the person would just walk into my place either they are that desperate or they are waiting for to be blasted.  As I told my grandmother today if her brother did that call me I will be down within 6 hours and all Hell would break loose and he won't have to worry about his sister blowing gaskets he has to worry about others.  Maybe I have seen to much in what goes on in the world around me or I have way to much crud just laid on me or I grew up in the real world either way.  I say seen to much and forced to see the real world.  I will say with some folks they did what they thought was best and I made it in the world.  Ok so I turned out cheap and I like it in how I turned out at this point in time.  Others will swear that I am nasty about it and not at all since they do not have a clue nor will they.  I have found out of why I have not had a call for the past 2 weeks also from the mouchers at all.  I will say somethings happen for a reason around here and I know why.  Now I will thank someone when they call back and the Man better be sitting down also once I think of it all.  As I have told some and the rest do not know about my stomach just flipping over what happened at all and I did not have the heart to tell my own grandmother that it went up for auction at all.  I already heard out of my Mommas mouth in what happened and I can not change it at all and I know the others would not lie neither also while I am at it all.  I know that I have made it on my own around here with little help from others and what I ask of is by a HUGE Thank You to most.  For the love of friendship and music both in my household.  Some are stuck with me and others have flown the coupe here and that is ok since I have no money to give to some people anymore at all.  Now I also know why some have not been asking at all.  I think they have moved totally from the area and not let me know.  I told my Husband again this weekend that I thought that the mouchers were waiting to get paid from me to be friends of ours.